The Sea Hospital

The Hospital is by the Beach

I’ve been here for Seven years

and I did not know it

In the waiting room

the sick sunbathe

we take photos of the people swimming

I have the same lump as a year ago

0.9 centimeters of fibrous tissue

in my right breast

My lump is good

Mom’s was bad, but she is good

I buy her books

And send them by mail

I tell her I have free shopping vouchers

otherwise she won’t let me buy them

“Don't you dare buy me books

Save your money- you’ll need it”

But I don’t spend.

I go to work

I clean virtual glasses

put them in tourists

“Can you see well like this?”

I go back home

That disinfectant

Cracks my hands

A year ago

I ignored the lump for months

How stupid could I be

Back then, I did spend -

Everyday

At Narcotics Anonymous

the old members

give their phone numbers to the newbies

just in case you need to Talk

just in case your soul Breaks

“do you need to see a doctor?

i’ll come with you to your gastrocopy

i don’t want your guts to be alone”

churches are closed at night

God isn’t in Heaven

he is in the ready-meal aisle

of the 24-hour supermarket

The 800 kiometers

between my mother and me

dissapear

when we watch the same show

Thanks to TV

for

Existing

Palm trees

and dirty Beach sand

crowded by pigeons

good thing it’s not cancer-

That would really suck

now that

I want to live